So every artist has to pay their dues and believe me, I’ve paid lol… I’ve really been “paying” for a while now and I guess things are finally starting to work out because I finally feel (within myself) like I’ve had my artistic breakthrough. I don’t mean oh I sold a million dollar song or I’m getting signed tomorrow BUT I think I finally believe in myself and in what I’m working to accomplish. That belief [usually] seems to come to artists when they are very young because they’re fearless and “no" just won’t do… but I’ve heard the "no’s" and fear has been sometimes crippling. I don’t know if it’s been the low points that I’ve hit, but now I think I’ve gotten my "two-year-old fearlessness" back. My perception has changed.
I realized that no matter what I do, music will always be in the center of my heart (right next to God) and regardless of how people feel about me doing it. Folks say that music is their love and passion, but usually don’t have the courage to put the action behind the passion to prove to themselves that they want it. Notice I said “prove to themselves.” I’m not trying to prove my love for creating to anyone but myself. When you prove things to yourself, it can start a chain reaction and actually spill into everyone else’s radar. I have to give myself a little pep talk sometimes and say “I know who I am, I recognize my God-given talents, even the ones folks don’t know I have… I can do this and I will do it.”
As artists, we gotta have thick skin and really know who we are because we’ve chosen a career path in which everyone has an opinion on it and you. We’ve witnessed [in the media] so many young and old people falling victim to public and/or professional opinion and it’s sad. I mean, when I tell you I get so sick of hearing folk’s opinions, I just want to kick shins lol… but I know that is what folks do, and this is what I have to endure for the rest of my career. I have to be a bit of a brick wall to protect myself, as do you. Bricks can be chipped and they can be broken, but not without extreme force or pressure and I won’t allow for people to bear that kind of force in my life. Don’t get me wrong though, constructive and useful criticism is important to take in but general opinions with no suggestions can wear thin at the nerves.
Anyway, I just hope that whoever reads this- you’re encouraged to press on. I’m living it right now. I’m “paying my dues” every single day and I hear when people have nice things & not so nice things to say at ground zero. The wonderful thing about having that breakthrough is now I really know who I am and whose I am. I whole heartedly believe in myself, no matter who/what comes and goes. I’mma do what I do, and just wait for the world to catch up.
Soooo I finally saw “Takers” last night and it was cool but nowhere NEAR “Set it Off” like people raved. Ok, this is my disclaimer… I’m just a consumer BUT I know a few of you that read my blog actually trust my judgement (lol) so I wanted to give you my two cents. Ok back to the movie… The writing was mediocre, the dialogue was odd at some points, the plot was a little predictable, and these guys basically played the magnified [cooler] versions of themselves. I will say this- Chris Brown had a very exciting action/chase sequence but if you can, wait for Redbox (or the premium movie channels) to pick it up.
Like I mentioned before, this movie was nowhere close to “Set it Off”- I didn’t feel the same emotional connection to the characters. I don’t think I’d even compare it to “The Italian Job” to tell you the truth. This cast did one thing for me though, they gave me eye candy for the evening lol… Yes, they were hot and walking in slow motion BUT that does NOT make for an epic blockbuster. I should have never jinxed myself by saying I didn’t care what the movie was about just because I <3 M. Ealy and I. Elba- I’ve learned my lesson. Overall it was cool but it’s your choice if you want to spend ten bucks on “cool.”
For those of you that have seen it, I’m interested in reading your thoughts on it.