AHHHHHHHH!!! Ok, I’m done :)
So I apparently don’t know how I am, even though I thought I did lol. Ok let me start over, I’ve been going through a bit or personal and artistic development. (Yes, even this young adult has to continuously work to push through different developmental stages.) Privately, I’ve been working on some different characteristics of my personality, which I’ll divulge later in another post but artistically I’ve been working on my presence. When I say presence I don’t limit it to the physical connotation, I’m meaning my overall presence as an artistic force.
I met with my team last week and after a series of questions about myself and my plans I froze up, choked, dropped the ball, had a total vulnerable moment lol (so tragic). I needed it. Right now I can laugh about it even though they’re probably worried out of their minds but that very moment forced me to reconsider my greatness (positively) and who I am as an artistic, spiritual being.
Rico Love is one of my favorite people in the music industry, and he makes these vlogs documenting different stages in projects and points of personal growth. This “Greatness” blog struck a chord with me because this morning when I woke up, I thought “I have no room for doubt in my mind, I must push forward and be great no matter who believes in that.” I’m realizing, I’m DeAndre Wright… a creative and deeply expressive artist. I’m connected (“at the hip”) to art. Wherever there is art and expression there is me because I thirst for it. In my thirst for art I obsess to constantly create it and to be known for it’s greatness and as a result of that, I too will reflect greatness.
I hate talking about myself, I always have but I love talking about my art because it’s almost like my protector, my confidence. I’ve never really thought of that before but it is (wow personal moment). I feel like I am great through my art… They asked me questions about being a star and personally I don’t view myself as the star, I see my art as the star. My expression is my light. I realized I’ve never claimed to want to be a star BUT I want to be an artistic phenomenon. I realized I want my legacy to be whatever form of expression I take on. I feel like my art is my star, and I am the vessel.
(Prince’s awkward interview at 3:46)
Let’s talk this Prince interview, while I could never see myself having a public meltdown like this I totally understand how it happened. His music is his freedom. It’s funny because while he’s ripping the stage, you think this kid has it together but 3:46 challenges otherwise. Prince swore to never have a moment like this again and even though he was a shy, awkward guy later his spirit took on his art and gave us the spitfire we now know today. He stretched his mind and allowed himself to be more than a vessel of expression, the art became present even in his shy demeanor and small frame. When I think of him I think of bright, creative energy; he is light, sound, and force which makes him a star in my eyes. That’s the kind of “star” I would want to be; actual creative energy that takes form in every aspect of my being. I don’t think of him as the generic pop tart star. Arguably one could say he was not even a star (personality) naturally. It started with the art, then it’s almost as if his creative force inside “Geppetto’d” a persona to reinforce its greatness.
I guess what I’m getting at is I’m realizing I’m DeAndre Wright and I’m letting go in order to let my art complete the puzzle so that that I can easily emit my greatness and let its presence be known.
I’m letting go to allow my art to burn bright and fulfill my greatness.
DeAndre
